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Pride

Hey! I know I’ve gotten really bad about posting on the blog but not really writing anything. The truth is that I have been feeling super uninspired lately, so I’ve not really had much to say. I’ll try to get better, but no promises.

On to the theme of today’s post though… Pride. Specifically, LGBT+ Pride. Every June rainbow flags start popping up everywhere, the parades happen, and the whole world seems to collectively come out to show their love and support for the LGBT+ community. But it’s the constant fear of hate that keeps me in the closet. It terrifies me, paralyzes me even. Every year I tell myself that I’m going to come out, and I never do. I’m 28 years old and fear has kept me from being open all this time. SL is the only place that I have felt like I could be “myself”. If I had a perfect body, a perfect face, and a literally limitless wardrobe. BUT I can at least be gay; I can flirt with guys and walk around in a leather harness and not really gives a damn.

I hate being closeted. And I hate being gay even more. I know that homosexual attraction is natural, that it isn’t something that can be changed on and off like a switch. I know this. But every part of me just feels that I’m wrong for being gay. I was raised in an extremely religious household (to put it lightly), so homosexuality wasn’t just considered sinful, but it was also something to be made fun of. And because I liked to play with my sister’s dolls, dress well, and had an obsession with flowers, I was a target sometimes. My mother and her friend would spend hours “deprogramming” me. The “therapy” started to become sexually explicit when I was a preteen. I learned to hate the thoughts that I had and to hate myself as well. And I’m somehow, inexplicably, terrified of coming out and either disappointing my family or proving that I am just a pervert. I feel like I can’t win.

After a brief time when a “friend” from church tried outing me after I moved back to Indiana in 2009, I’ve been living as a “straight” man. For the most part, anyway. There are a few people that know; an older adoptive sister who is gay herself; an older biological sister who was excommunicated by our mother; and some people from my previous and current job. But apart from me going to the wedding of a lesbian friend and to Chicago Pride last year, I try to stay away in fear of “outing” myself. My grand plan this year was to head to Chicago for Pride again, and finally come out after wimping out last year. Well, those plans fell through because a) lack of money; & b) lack of friends to actually go with. So here I am, sharing more than anyone cares to know on a Second Life fashion blog. I’m venting, really. I’m a very lonely person; I talk to very few people in RL and I have only one remaining friend in SL. So, this is me, letting it all hang out. Almost literally, in this outfit.

For closing this post, I just want to say thanks to second life for being a least some outlet where I can be “myself” and not be worried about backlash. I can’t decide if it’s been good for me, or if it’s just been a roadblock to me actually being myself in RL. I dunno. But thanks, anyway I guess. Oh, and Boystown was the first gay SIM I visited back in 2009, so I couldn’t think of a more fitting place to take pics for a Pride-themed post.

Now that all of that crap is out of the way, goodnight, and you’ll find the credits and SLURL’s at the bottom. Please, please, please be kind to everyone. You never know what’s going on on their side of the screen. Goodnight!

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What I’m Wearing:

Harness: Mossu – Violent.Top – Blue – available at the June round of The Man Cave

Undies: Mossu – Violent.Underwear – Cherry – available at the June round of The Man Cave

Shoes: Momento. Leather sneakers violet (gacha item)

Bracelets: Mad’ – Gay Pride – WristBands

 

Body

Mesh Head: Mesh Head: CATWA HEAD Stanley

Mesh Body: –Belleza– Mesh Body Jake

Head Skin Applier: Clef de Peau.Calvin T6 [CATWA]

Body Skin Applier: Clef de Peau.Body Tight T6 [JAKE] Applier

Hair: Modulus – Caesar Hair – FatPack

Hairbase: Modulus – Ross HairBase – FatPack (tinted with Catwa HUD)

Right Eye: .ID. Stunning Eyes / Hazel

Left Eye: .ID. Stunning Eyes / Blue-Multi

Body/Face Glitter: Izzie’s – Body & Face Glitter

 

Poses:

Poseology

 

Location:

Boystown

 

 

Sinner

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What I’m Wearing:

Jacket/Shirt: <Kalback> Letterman Jacket M3_Green – available at the June round of The Men’s Department

Jeans: <Kalback> Original Jeans M2_Light Blue

Sneakers: [Deadwool] Chase sneakers – off-white – available at the SL14 Shopping Event

Watch: [Z O O M] Moylan Watch: Classic Edition

 

Body:

Mesh Head: CATWA HEAD Stanley

Mesh Body: [SIGNATURE] Gianni

Head Skin Applier: STRAY DOG – HUNTER TONE 04 – available at the June round of Kink(y) Monthly

Body Skin Applier: L’Etre Homme – Omega Body Appliers [Buttermilk Tone]

Hair: Stealthic – Haunting (Browns)  – available at the May/June round of Men Only Monthly

Hairbase: L’Etre – Shaved Hairbase [Dark brown]

Eyebrow Applier: Unorthodox Manly Eyebrows #1 Chocolate Omega Applier

Eyes: .ID. Aqua Eyes / Hazel

 

Poses:

Pose Maniacs

 

Location:

The Good Life

Romp

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What I’m Wearing:

Romper: REIGNxFLITE.- ROMPIM (MALE) – available at the May/June round of Uber

Shoes: Momento. Leather sneakers RARE – available at the May round of The Men’s Department

Sunglasses: [Z O O M] Carethor Glasses – available at the May/June round of Men Only Monthly

 

Body:

Mesh Head: CATWA HEAD Daniel

Mesh Body: Slink Physique

Head Skin Applier: STRAY DOG – SEAN TONE 04 – available at the May round of The Men’s Department

Body Skin Applier: L’Etre Homme – Omega Body Appliers [Buttermilk Tone]

Hair: Modulus – Tate Hair – FatPack – available at the May/June round of Limit8

Hairbase: Modulus – David Hair Base – Limited Edition – Omega & TMP – available at the May/June round of Limit8

Eyebrow Applier: L’Etre Homme – Arched Eyebrows [Blonde]

Tattoo Applier: DAPPA – Born Bad Tattoo

Eyes: .ID. Stunning Eyes / Blue-Multi

 

Poses:

Le Poppycock

 

Location:

Black Cat Island

Giardini di Vita

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What I’m Wearing:

Shirt: //Ascend// Enzo Shirt with Tie – Polka White – available at the May round of The Men’s Department

Jeans: :PARKER: BLAKE JEANS.STONE – available at the May round of The Men’s Department

Sneakers: [ VERSOV ] KARMENOV_Sneakers_BRWHITE&RED – available at the May round of The Men’s Department

Necklace: ///BENJAMINZ/// Humility Necklace (ROSEGOLD) – available at the May round of The Men’s Department

Watch: [Z O O M] Zeed Watch – available at the April/May round of Men Only Monthly

 

Body:

Mesh Head: CATWA HEAD Daniel

Mesh Body: [SIGNATURE] Gianni

Head Skin Applier: >> Aeros Avatar Brox << Catwa Face App ::  tequila – available a the May round of The Men’s Department

Body Skin Applier: >> Aeros Avatar Brox << Signature Skin App :: tequila – available at the May round of The Men’s Department

Hair: *Dura*B77-BROWN – available at the May round of The Men’s Department

Eyes: .ID. Winter Eyes / Blue-Hazel

 

Poses:

Pose Maniacs

 

Location:

Giardini di Vita

Peaton Island

Hey all! Just a few quick words this time.

Skin Fair is here, and there seems to be a fair amount of men’s skins compared to previous years. They’re all pretty fantastic! Also, this look is one of my favorites so far on the blog, so there’s that!

As it is every time, credits and SLURLs at the bottom!

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What I’m Wearing:

Shirt/Blazer: /Ascend/ Smith Blazer with Tank top – Smoke – available at the March round of The Men’s Department

Pants: BlankLine CargoPants [Beige] – available at the March round of The Men’s Department

Sunglasses: [Z O O M] Stogger Glasses – available at the March round of The Men’s Department

Shoes: {kokoia} Tussio :: Canvas Sneakers Male – available at the March round of The Men’s Department

Watch: :::NOIR::: Angus Watch [Black] – available at the March round of The Men’s Department

Necklace: [MANDALA]HARAMITA-season2-Necklace

 

Body:

Mesh Head: CATWA HEAD Daniel

Mesh Body: [SIGNATURE] Gianni

Head Skin Applier: AG. Kai Skin – Catwa Applier – Tan – available at the Skin Fair 2017

Body Skin Applier: AG. Body Appliers – Signature – available at the Skin Fair 2017

Tattoo Applier: .Inhale. Harlots Breath -Sleeves – available at the February/March round of Men Only Monthly

Eyes: AG. Ardor Eyes – Green – available at the Skin Fair 2017

Hair: Modulus – Pavel Hair – Browns

Hairbase Applier: Modulus – Vinny Hair Base – Browns

 

Location:

West of the Rain

 

Fancy

First post in a while! Hopefully I’ll be able to post more often. Anyway, I hope everyone is having a great 2017 so far! You know, credits at the bottom of the photos!

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What I’m Wearing:

Jacket/Shirt/Scarf/Feathers: Ascend/ Joseph Suit Jacket – Plain Smoke – available at the January round of The Men’s Department

Pants: Ascend/ Joseph Suit Trouser – Plain Smoke – available at the January round of The Men’s Department

Shoes: –David Heather-Embelished Sneakers – gacha item from previous event; available in the Gacha room at store

Glasses: [Z O O M] Lombard Glasses

 

Body:

Mesh Head: Absolut Creations ADAM-head -#beta 1v1.3b BENTO

Mesh Body: [SIGNATURE] Gianni

Skin: Clef de Peau:Jimmy Head T5:ADAM Appliers

Eyebrows: Clef de Peau Eyebrows v.25 Brown Omega Applier [AK]

Hairbase: Modulus – Helix HairBase Brown1 – Omega Applier

Hair: Modulus – Arthur Hair – Catwa

Eyes: .ID. Stunning Eyes / Hazel

 

Location:

The Looking Glass

Ironwood Hills

I was browsing Flickr the other day, and found pics of this SIM that were perfectly creepy and wonderful, and I knew that I HAD to do a post here. So, this is definitely a post that is more about the location more than the fashion. However, my crappy photos do nothing to showcase the sheer creepiness and scope of this place, so PLEASE go visit Ironwood Hills yourself! And use the region Windlight settings – it adds to the experience SO MUCH!

So, just a quick post here… credits at the bottom!

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What I’m Wearing:

Pants/Suspenders: ::GB::stripe susupender pants with wallet_brown – available at the September round of The Men’s Department

Shoes: –David Heather-Fred Sneakers/Sienna – available at the September round of The Men’s Department

Watch: [Deadwool] Nuvolari chrono

Earring: [MANDALA]TAPER PIERCE_NEKO – available at the September round of The Men’s Department

Necklaces: [MANDALA]YOLO-Jewelry-set

 

Body:

Skin: Clef de Peau:Jonas T5

Mesh Body/Hands/Feet: Slink

Eyebrows: Clef de Peau:Eyebrows 8 Blonde

Hair: *ARGRACE* SHUN – Dark Blondes

Eyes: L’Etre – Real Eyes [#8]

Ears: L’Etre – Basic mesh ears

Tattoo: { Speakeasy } Shallow Tattoo – available at the Book of Daniel charity event

 

Location:

Ironwood Hills